The good news is it doesn't have to be that way. We are so programmed to avoid discomfort and pain that we want to just
take it away with some medication or perhaps more innocently do something for ourselves that makes us "feel good."
Especially during these holiday seasons, we are tempted to just shop or go out and give ourselves and others gifts.
But what if the true "gifts" we really need are the "inner gifts?" The type of growth that doesn't always come in a package
we can appreciate. It can come as through our disappointments.
All of us have that child part of ourselves that never wants to be let down, always wanting to get the things we want.
Its a completely different thing to find the maturity within ourselves that allows the graces of life's lessons
to find us.
Yes, it is in a sense a Spiritual life that beckons for our attentions. We have it so good or so it seems in the West
that we hardly can have any patience that we might have to wait for something.
We want it all to happen now, we have little tolerance when our friends let us down, when our birthdays are forgotten,
when the better things seem to go to someone else. So and so's life seems so much easier, mine is filled with hardships. When
is it going to stop? Won't i ever have enough money? Be pretty enough? Likeable enough...can't things ever go my way?
And yet, even when life seems so unfair, we just don't seem able to take any more. We find ourselves becoming irritable,
even negative. We try and be positive but something nagging just keeps at us. We want good things to happen for us, but i
just can't take another let down.
It seems so futile and that's because it is. It's futile to keep fighting within ourselves. We are about to reach a breaking
point, but before we have to breakdown we can decide to instead break-through! Again, its our disappointments
that can actually help us.
In a sense it probably takes a strength we may not feel we have, especially when things are tough, but in another sense
that's when we can discover a true key to our Victory...Surrender!
Most people are taught, surrender means losing, but it can on another level, open us up to finding new solutions in our
life to our problems and disappointments.
The difference is what we must learn to surrender to is our own
inner walk with our true inner selves.
Again, the idea of the "inner life" may have been a distant concept to us, but for many of us is is only when "outer"
things are not working for us do we then consider new options of understanding.
When we think we have been let down by our friends, even our spouses we can discover that depending upon outer people
is at best inconsistent. It can be a moment of awakening when we discover we may have been ignoring or avoiding the
relationship that matters most, the relationship with ourselves, but were not talking about our humanly conceived idea of
ourselves, but a vast infinite dimension of our being, ourselves as Soul, ourselves as becoming Spirit.
How much time do we devote to our view of ourselves, not what we see as Physical, but as that of what we cannot see with
our outer sight.
It can begin with introspection, with a sense, a growing sense that we are more than our interests, our desires, even
our hopes, but we are a non-physical reality that tries to reach us, to speak to us, to get us to hear its subtle impressions.
This can be the beginning of a new sense of ourselves...an awakening.
It can be like a small voice that doesn't command an over powering presence. In fact it might have to compete with a
million other interests that clamor for our attentions.
In a sense it is like a spark, because we have to ignite it, we have to fan that flame that this might grown in us.
Often times, outer disappointments can actually be a way we pause in our lives long enough to turn away from an outer
dependence on things and people and in a sense are forced to discover within.
So in another sense, loss is good. It can be transcendent. It can lead us to what has been referred to
as a sort of "divine discontent," that can spur our journey.
We may not know what type of word to put on it. We can call it Soul or Spirit, but there is something within each of
us that exists as a living potential.
Maybe, it is learning to find this "gift" within ourselves. It has been there all along, but it has been like an un-opened
package. We have to first discover it and learn that exists, that if we have to have enough interest to learn how it works.
We have to have a basic desire to investigate.
For most of us we may have never conceived that we already have an inner appartus, a component, even an invisable part
of ourselves that exists to give us perspective and exploration of the innward source of our being. Something that helps us
to find and define our purpose, our sense of our place in vast Universes of awareness and a vital link that connects Man to
We can perhaps perceive that a part of ourselves longs and yearns, we might even be able to recognize it as a Soul
Something beyond our understanding of the Physical heart, is the abode, the habitat of this Divine Spark within
all of us.
It is actually like a gentle flame, even tiny. Its mere discovery brings a wonderment to our outer awareness. We
have learned to look away for most things, but here, in the folds of our inner being , this gentle enduring spark is
It is our Child within with all purity and innocence that can first behold that which our Adult selves can see only as
Though its seems to be a single flame it is actually three flames and each separate flame has its own color.
These three colors are beautiful and radiant and they seem to synchronize and give off an effusive quality of light.
As we look upon them we begin to take on emanations that each color and flame has its own specific gift and yet they are together
as a whole, a Unity of three, a tri-unity.
Somehow, the colors themselves and the flames that contain them begin to distill in us a new sense of ourselves, of who
we are. Of what we are a part of . As we look into them we in a sense are becoming that flame.
Our outer idea of ourselves is transformed as we discover the different qualities each of the three little flames begins
to reveal to us.
First, the Pink flame, a soft translucent radiant Rose color, not really a color we have seen before except
in my minds eye warms us with its glow. We discover it is not just a color or a flame but it is a quality , a presence, a
living expression, a deep and completely eternal joy. It is the living manifestation of Love.
The second flame also comes before us. We are drawn into its Yellow brilliance. It is a shining illumenesence that transfers
our minds and quickens our understandings to realms before to not known. It is a yellow fire that singes the density of pall
and ignorance for its existence and presence, radiates, uplifts and illuminates. I am the coordinates of the MIND of God that
may be in you. Seek thee within and find. It is the intelligence lifted upward, true Wisdom, that directs the path of WISE-DOMINION.
It is the consideration that comes before action. Its Yellow Flame is another arm of thy whole being, not intended
to be the sole way, yet a part of the new understanding we seek. It is a partner of the heart. Look again, its Yellow Brilliance
is really a Golden Fire.
We find it is both through devotion and by pondering and awakening that a new sense of my being is borne, Yes, what is
this? A New understanding i find within?
Strange and even trivial, now seems my outer preoccupation with the approvals and attentions of others, the comings and
goings of both fortune and sorrow that visit me.
How have i been found wanting in these temporary , oh so fleeting human vexations.
Disappointments? Nay! They are but ego-disappointments, for i have cast my gaze on that which could only surely change,
for inevitable is its course.
I have already begun to lose some sense of my outer self, the importance i have so placed on all of these outer hopes.
Dashed and even silly it so seems. Now i have seen love's promise meld in my heart. This is not too hard, too trying...i
look and i find even that which really Lives. It is ME beating, with loves ways, it is the piercing fire
of the New infinite mind. I have really begun to take flight, soaring above, a great vastness and beauty i experience.
Even more there is to discover, for now i have seen that both the heart and the mind are a way and a path and here before
me i see again it is the WILL that can liberate me yet farther.
How i have not really known or understood the Power of thy being. Blue, oh, so royally so, and magnificent in its surges
There is no doubt that can hold me any longer as i stand in its endless sapphire radiance. Obedience it reveals is its
secret if i would also learn to turn and render to thy law of my own being.
All idea of loss springs from what has departed from truth, Power can be your steed, the very horse we may bridle, but
we cannot disobey, for to mount in error is futile.
Newness in hope i can go forward, equipped with these eternal gifts of my little friends of the Flame.
I return with eyes a new that have been opened by impartations of seeing with inner sight, of imagining of what is always
possible, of endless and boundless resource that would serve me.
Now that i have discovered that Universal fount that springs within me, so regally prepared Am I to hold life challenges
as opportunities to prove the measure and mastery of thy Divine will, thy educated and loving heart, yes, the very mind that
beholds all understanding and solution.
Perhaps, all that i have sensed that i felt had befallen me, was but a venue that i might turn and find a new course
set that i might more mightily and divinely be inspired.
Even so, so vastly improved i may now make my advancements, moving about in this world of form, compassionate and impassioned
to both share and inspire those who would traverse a course such as I....new hope, no sorrow for IAM FREE!
THE THREE FOLD FLAME: is a divine spark represented by three plumes that represent LOVE, WISDOM and
POWER. These Flames or Plumes can actually, grow or expand by our devotion and tending to the flame of life. Also called
the GOD flame within us it exists as a Universal Spark that connects us as the Divine Potential that we have within us to
develop and anchor on all planes of being both Physical and Spiritual. It is truly our divine identity and in different ages
that flame was more greatly magnified in man. It also connects us to our crystal cord to the planes of our Mighty IAM Presence.
As we are able to increase in our Mastery and Amplification of these Divine Qualities we can receive an increased flow of
Heavenly, Perfected gifts which draws forth from our IAM Presence, Divine light, that nourishes the Chakras (Spiritual
Centers) and thus expands the development of each of the plumes. Because of man's inattention on raising up the energies of
light and misqualification, most of modern man has reduced the three-fold flame to 1/16 of an inch. It is the goal of being
to balance the qualities of each of the plumes in equal measure thus supplying us with a blueprint for divine direction of
all our endeavors. Thus we would in an enlighten way pursue a balanced three fold flame.
The Three Fold Flame when balanced and expanded can contain the whole being of Man (Manifestation) or
Womb-man (Woman) of the Christ Flame. At the point of the Souls, bonding with the Christ self in Preparation to become one
with its great God Self or Planes of Spirit the three-fold flame begins to spin, accelerating and becoming the Mother of Pearl
in the Ritual of the Ascension. Truly, this flame is our Divine Potential to become our ultimate reality, that Spirit-Spark